Honestly

“I love the way that your heart breaks/ over every injustice and deadly fate/ praying it all will be new/ and living like it all depends on you.”
— “Again” by Flyleaf

Friends,
As difficult as it is to say, I must be honest: I have lacked zeal, passion, and care for the 113 Chibok girls– not to mention the countless other kidnapping victims– still in captivity. I have gone through the motions; I have let routine get in the way of Loving others.

I write this with tears in my eyes. I went back to the start; the start of this blog, and the start of every prayer prayed for the Chibok girls, Nigeria, and it’s people at large.

What did I find? I found Nehemiah 1:1-11.

A prayer to God the Father, from a broken and wrecked individual, for the broken and wrecked, beloved people in his life. A humble prayer, coming from a man whose very heart of hearts had been broken. A man who saw the injustice, and decided, with Jesus as His Guide, to do something about it.

This blog was birthed in August of 2014, for this very reason: broken and wrecked for the 276 Chibok schoolgirls who had been kidnapped, and their community, Jesus put a fire in my heart to do something about it: Let others know, and encourage others to pray.

Over time, though, what started out as a passionate love for these young women, and their situation, became a polished religious activity I did “so that Jesus would be pleased with me.”

I fell into bondage. I lost all the Joy and Life that writing this blog originally gave me.
This has happened a couple  many times since the blog was started. The legalism and bondage got so bad, that now my family is weary of me writing on this blog, at all. They don’t want to see me in fear and legalism again.

I may continue to struggle with this.
And if it all gets to be too much, I will need to take a break, turn around,
and return back to my first Love: Jesus.

But friends, it is really in my heart to keep pressing on, to keep praying for each one of these 276 young women, their families, and everyone affected.

So, please pray. Please pray for me, that I would “not become weary in doing good,” and not turn this into a game of a works-based relationship with God.

Because there is still much to be done. And breakthrough for these people– those victimized and crushed by Boko Haram– is right around the corner.
There are still 113 young Chibok women who have not tasted freedom, yet.
And there are 163 young Chibok women still reeling from their loss.
There is much to pray for, and much to be done, in this nation. In this city.

And out of a Love that could only come from Jesus Himself, I will press on, in compassionate action, for these young women. Will you join me? ❤
_______________________

“Dear Lord Jesus,
Forgive me for turning this beautiful, amazing thing that You have done in and through me into a dead, stale pile of ‘good works.’
I know that NONE of my own ‘goodness’ can save me from the sinner I am.
Jesus,
I pray, with all of my heart, that this would not be about me. Not about perfection, or striving, or numbers and times and bad religiosity. Remove this pharisee-like heart for the Chibok schoolgirls, and replace it with a burning passion to see their freedom.

Dear Jesus,
As long as this blog stays centered upon You, please bless it. Bless those who pray and wrestle in prayer with me. Give us hearts that break for what breaks Yours!
Let us not stop until each one of these captive, beautiful human beings are saved.

In Jesus’ Name I pray,
Amen.”



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“PRAYER FOR THE CHIBOK GIRL OF THE WEEK”: A new prayer resource

Almost a month ago,  Isaiah 62 Prayer Ministry was led by Jesus to create a new feature, focused on praying for each individual Chibok schoolgirl.

Because of this, Isaiah 62 Prayer Ministry has created a new prayer page, called “Prayer for the Chibok Girl of the Week.” Each week, a new Chibok school girl from this image will be featured. Their name and picture will be posted, as well as a short biography about them. If they are free or not will be noted, along with a short prayer for the young woman. It is Isaiah 62 Prayer Ministry’s prayer that all of the girls will be freed. Therefore, Isaiah 62 Prayer Ministry is committed to loving, supporting, and praying for each Chibok schoolgirl, while helping readers to do so, as well.

After the Chibok Girl to Pray for of the Week has been featured, they will then be featured in the page, “PRAYER OF SURRENDER/RELEASE” (found in the drop-down menu under “PRAYER FOR THE CHIBOK GIRL OF THE WEEK”). This page will feature the Chibok girl again, and will include a separate prayer, releasing and surrendering the Chibok Girl into Jesus’ Hands. While this does mean that they will no longer be especially featured in this way, it does not at all mean that we have stopped, or should stop, praying for them as an individual. Jesus told His followers, in the Parable of the Persistent Widow, to never stop praying until they see results: And will not God bring about justice for his chosen ones, who cry out to him day and night? Will he keep putting them off? I tell you, he will see that they get justice, and quickly” (Luke 18:7-8). Isaiah 62 Prayer Ministry encourages readers to continue to pray for each one of these girls, as they are led!

It is the hope and prayer that this new feature will encourage you, as a reader, to pray for the Chibok girls: as a whole, but also as an individual. May Jesus bring each one of these girls to Himself– and therefore, to complete freedom.

Click here to read this week’s Prayer for the Chibok Girl of the Week!